you dont know what im feeling

i dont like i dont like i dont like. >:(

you know, sometimes, i really just need someone to hug and lean on during busy moments. like a breather.

sometimes, i feel like staying in the hospital for good. or probably enter the graveyard, cos its so peaceful from the bustling city. its not that i can't keep up to the pace, but more of taking the time off to appreciate stuff around me. however, time is way too precious. everything is coming and going at a very fast pace. too fast for me to savour the good times. yet slow during the bad times.

it takes so long to climb up back. so long. too long. heart pain pain pain.